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Diana Mendoza. 17. I like to paint and I love bands. I play an instrument with six strings on it. Call me pangs, short for pango. Self-hard. Hahahaha hello poesz!

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    Shit

    So much from the past. And it’s all connected to what’s up with the present. Ewan ko ba napakagulo tupa. Halo-halo na lahat. Buti walang calculus kundi baka natulog nalang ako forever at di na gumising. 1:43AM na pero shit overthinking every night. Hay dear mind pls stop trying to forget, the situation has gotten even worse kasi you just remember every detail lang e. We don’t really forget ok. We just learn to live with what’s said and done. Try to live diana try to live try to continue living because this is going to get a lot worse before it gets better.. #hayhugot #ayawmatulogngutakko #antoknaantoknako #naiihipako #kasotakotakobumaba #tiistiisdinpagmaytime

    8 hours ago with 0 notes

    09265602121

    Sino pa ba gising dyan pahingi naman ako ng kausap pls ang shit shit ng buhay ko ngayon ang shit ko sa sarili ko ang shit

    10 hours ago with 2 notes

    ngayon pa nawala yung paintbrush ko kung kelan ko kailangan kung kelan ako sinisipag magdraft sa canvas kung kelan ako may feelings kung kelan na sa mood ang shit

    10 hours ago with 1 note

    I’ll try harder to not care, ramdam kong nakakaasar na ko. Hahahahahahha

    12 hours ago with 1 note

    Mama mia

    Pagod na pagod na ko umintindi. (Hindi ito love thingy) Everytime nalang na magkakaron ng diskusyon habang naghahapunan kami o habang nanonood kami ng tv, it always end up with these words, “Yaan mo na, nasanay kasi yan sa ugali ng papa mo nung bata sya, wala ka pa. Yang kapatid mo kasi di lang nagsasabi pero kilala ko yan, kinikimkim lahat ng sama ng loob nya sa sarili, nakakaawa rin intindihin mo nalang.”

    Hindi na bilang sa daliri ko sa kamay yang linya na yan. Kulang nalang maging tag line sa bahay e. It’s not that valid to make it an excuse. “Kasi madaming pinagdaanan yan nung wala ka pa,” “Di natin alam may mga pinoproblema rin yan,” etc. Ang sakin lang, 23 yrs old na si kuya. He’s more mature compared to me. I assume lol pero six years na age gap? He must be. Minsan napapaisip ako, so kasalanan ko pang di ko naranasan hirap kasama na yung pagddrugs ni papa noon? Kasalanan ko na kesyo hindi ko iniintindi si kuya. Kasalanan ko na mas maluwag sakin sa mga bagay bagay. Lahat nalang yata kasalanan ko. Kasalanan ko na nabuhay ako ganon? HAHAHAHA Nakakainis lang kasi, tinatrato pa nyang bata si kuya. Anong dahilan? Dahil six years syang nawala? Well, zz. Pareho namang samin nagkulang ah. She needs to be fair. Kahit sabihin nyang wala syang mas mahal, ramdam ko yun. Pag pinapagalitan nya ko at gumagatong pa si kuya, ayos lang sakanya. Di nya ba napapansin na kahit kelan di ako sumasabat pag pinagsasabihan nya si kuya? Immature na kung immature pero that’s what i feel from what she has been doing. “Mabait na anak si kuya, matipid si kuya, biruin mo 2nd yr college lang sya na naghahandle ng budget nung umalis kami,” so on. Surang sura na ko sa pambibida nya kay kuya. One time may nakita kaming test paper ni kuya, sabi nya, “Wow galing neto ah 90/100?” Syempre ako, nanliit. Ano bang panama ng 7/50 kong quiz don. Hahahaha tekpu. Sabi nya, “Ako pa ba? Sus.” Bumulong ako, “90/100 nga eh nasan naman ngayon wala volunteer nurse isang taon nang walang trabaho.” Ganun nalang talaga inis ko sakanya dahil napaka insensitive nya. He should be working by now. Kasama sa responsibilidad ng isang anak ang magtapos at magtrabaho para makatulong sa pamilya. At kung iisipin nyang kasalanan nya pa na wala syang trabaho dahil pinilit lang syang mag-nursing? Fine, it’s obvious, wala syang kasalanan noon pero a mistake can’t be fixed by another mistake. I will not argue further with him just because it’s not intelligible. Di ko mahanap yung point nya dun sa pagtake nya ng nursing. My parents never took away the chance from him to decide on his own naman e, isa pa, planado nang kukuha sya ng student visa pagtapos magboard. Pero di ko magets kung bakit ayaw nyang mag-ibang bansa.

    Ako aminado ko idol ko yung kapatid ko simula bata. Sobrang close kami. Naalala ko lagi ko syang sinusundan tuwing magsisimba. Naiirita sya sakin kaya sinusumbong nya ko kila mama kasi sunod raw ako ng sunod. Nung 5 o 6 yrs old siguro ako nun, nawala ako sa SM kasi sinusundan ko sya. Sabi nya niligaw nya raw ako sa department store kasi naiirita sya sakin. Lol. Hanggang paglaki, hinangaan kong wala syang bagsak sa nursing. Nakapasa sa quali, nakapasa sa first take sa board exam, licensed nurse. Kaya for 16 yrs nabuhay ako sa pressure. Ewan ko ba, mahirap lang talaga pag lumaki ka sa pamilyang perfectionist kung hindi ka naman perfect. It sucks bc i swear i’m not good enough and no matter how hard i try e di ko pa rin mapapantayan kung pano napahanga ni kuya si mama. Sad lyf di ba HAHAHAHAHA On the other hand, I completely understand kung bakit kailangan ko ring sundin yung mga bagay na gusto nila kasi naniniwala akong para sa kabutihan ko rin naman yun, and that’s the responsibility of every child. Pero sana maintindihan rin ni mama na mahirap at nahihirapan ako. Pakiramdam ko bawat galaw ko bawat nangyayari sa buhay ko kahit mabuti e disappointment sakanya at kailangang ma-please ko sya at kailangan kong i-prove yung sarili ko na kaya ko lahat. Lagi nyang tinatanong, “Kamusta exam mo? Nagquiz ba kayo kanina? Ano balita sa calculus mo?” Nung sinabi ko ngang pasado mt grade ko sa calc e nagtaka pa sya. Ewan ko ba, si papa nalang yata talaga yung kaya akong maintindihan kahit may nagagawa akong mali. And i’m thankful for that.

    Napahaba tuloy ang sad lyf ko sa post na ito. =)) Ang point ko lang kasi, if she continues treating my brother that way, he will always be reminded that the world owes him considerations. He won’t be prepared for any extra challenges life would give as he grows older. He needs to learn certain things and sometimes, those things should be learned in a hard way and of course, on his own. Empathy. Not sympathy.

    19 hours ago with 3 notes

    Insurgent=cliffhanger 😭

    Who the fucj is edith prior why did she introduced hrself as amanda ritter yet later took identity of an edith prior hay nakakabitin!!!! Sbrang nakakabitin!! Now i understand why jeanine wanted to get rid of divergents, why she thought they were dangerous and considered their capabilities as a threat. She doesn’t want the gates to be opened because human nature there is THE disease. Kaya she did several simulations and experiments and stabilizations to preserve life inside the fence to make all factions safe (or maybe to make them the cure) but didn’t really realized on the other hand that it would create vagueness and opaqueness between the five factions. Masyado syang natakot sa possibilities of divergence pero edith prior said it’s better to have plenty of divergents wc will make way for their city to be ready and regain humanity on the outside world hayyy sana divergent rin ako. 😭

    Allegiant ure next!!!!! 💗💗💗

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    Japan on biyahe ni drew!! (repost)

    Kyoto, Shiga, and Nagoya prefectures ughhh one of my dream destinations talaga land of the rising sun!! (bc tokyo tower seems relevant sa eiffel okay na yun 😂) Kaso Kyoto palang 8000 yen na!! Jusko P20000?! Someday!!! Hahahahahhahaha!! Pero di sulit tingin ko e, 3 hrs lang yung tour tapos ghost shop at shrines lang? Zz. Pero sabagay nakakaamaze naman talaga temples nila. Sa Shiga okay paaaa!! River cruise tapos gusto ko talaga makatikim ng sake ewan ko kung bakit sa mga nilalaro ko dati may ganun e bwahahahaha! Last sa Nagoya Tower!!! Dun mavview yung Tokyo Tower hayyyyy pangarap ka nalang ba o magiging katotohanan paaaa 😂 Tapos yung set ng dinnerware sa Noritake na $2M?! Wtf no thanks bruh hahahaha sa tiangge may tig sasampung pisong baso e grabe milyon 😂

    Pero there’s so much in Japan huhu. Gusto ko maexperience maglakad sa world’s busiest street, makasakay sa roller coaster sa nagashima na yun world’s longest rc 2km!!! Ang saya non!!!! Hahahhaha naalala ko yung mine train at hair raiser sa hk e the best!! Tapos makakita ng totoong ninja o kabuki o samurai o geisha (battle realms days!!), makapag medidate kasama ng isang monk pano yon di ko kayang hindi magsalita at hindi tumawa hahahahaha!! Tapos ttry ko maglakad sa busiest railway station at busiest crossing/street sa buong mundo!! Shibuya hayst. Tapos makanood ng live match ng sumo. HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! Tapos Shinjuku Garden!!! Cherry blossoms!!!!! 😭

    Bet na bet ko talaga manood ng mga gantong palabas e feeling ko kasama na rin ako bwahahhahahahaha kayo rin ba ha hahahhahahhaha ok

    1 day ago with 3 notes

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    I think that you are the liar. You tell me you love me, you trust me, you think I’m more perceptive than the average person. And the first second that belief in my perceptiveness, that trust, that love—is put to the test, it all falls apart. So you must have lied when you told me all those things … you must have, because I can’t believe your love is really that feeble. I am still the person who would have died rather than kill you, Tobias. I am exactly who you think I am. And right now, I’m telling you that I know … I know this information will change everything. Everything we have done, and everything we are about to do.

    (Moments after..)

    You were right, i do know who you are. I just needed to be reminded.

    (He kisses her)

    Beatrice Prior and Tobias Eaton, Insurgent

    1 day ago with 4 notes

    Good morning. ugh suspended classes pero tindi naman ng ulan. Tapos apaw na raw tubig sa ilog ng marilao kung kailan pinayagan mag sleepover para sa thesis e. Panira ng sched tong bagyo na to hay. Keeo safe everyone! 🙏

    2 days ago with 3 notes

    “I liked some people and hated some people. And there were some people I didn’t know I had until I lost them.”

    2 days ago with 2 notes

    Hi ang ganda ganda nyo po. Joke uy umasa ka nanaman hay

    @Anonymous

    OH TALAGA

    2 days ago with 0 notes

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    9/18/14

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    2 days ago with 1 note

    3.1416-sics

    Obviously, we allowed the object to fall so the effect of the gravity is to accelerate possitively as it falls. And as we drop the g-ladder, the rungs interrupts the light beam casted by the light barrier that is connected to the timer box…

    Hay report bukas sa Physics lab oh last sem sa psych ang report ko tungkol sa “how is it to be a friend” pinamukha pa sakin ni maam na friendzoned ako oh tapos ngayon tungkol naman sa free fall oh yung totoo ba ha. Hugot moments na naman ba. Hahahaha shet sana sapian ng mabait na katawang lupa si maam bukas!!! Sana wag mampahiya gudlak sakin ang sipag ko na ulit shet gantong ganto ako nung first year first sem e sana tuloy tuloy na to pls bawal bumagsak talaga. :( =)) Nakita ko pa si great love kanina hayyyy buti nalang nakadapa buhok nya hindi nakataas kunde jusko sabog obaryo na itu. Hahahaha!! Bait nya ah umaattend ng first subj kahit minor lang. Hay ang cute cute sarap sana titigan habang nakatingin sa iba kaso baka mahuli wahahaha :’)

    3 days ago with 2 notes